1,000,000 Bill.....

On my way into the library this morning I found a 1,000,000.00 bill. On the back it said "Here's the Million Dollar Question; are you good enough to go to heaven? Let's see if you are. Have you ever told a lie? White lies, fibs, and exaggerations are all considered lies to God. If you have told a lie, then you would be called a liar. Have you ever stolen anything(regardless of the value)? If you have, then you would be a thief. Have you ever murdered anybody? The Bible says "Whosoever hates his brother is a murderer" (1 John 3:15). Have you ever hated anybody? If so, then God sees you are a murderer. On the Day of Judgement, will you you be innocent of guilty? If you are reasonable, you will see that you will be guilty, and therefore deserve Hell. But, there is good news! That is not God's Will! Picture yourself in a courtroom, guilty of many serious crimes. The fine is $5,000,000 or life in prison. You don't have any money with which to pay your fine. The guards then begin to lead you off to jail...All of a sudden, someone yo have never met steps in and pays your fine for you. You are now free to go. How would that make you feel? You see, that is exactly what Jesus Christ did 2,000 years ago. He paid the penalty for all our sins by dying on the cross. He then defeated death by rising from the dead three days later. The Bible expresses it like this: "God commends his love towards us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ dided for us" (Romans 5:8). "For Gos so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in him should not perish, but have everlasting life" (John 3:16). God promises eternal life to those who confess and forsake their sins and place their faith in Jesus Christ alone to save them. So the question is what will you do? Will you repent (turn from your sins) and put your complete faith in Jesus Christ as your Savior and Lord? For more information please visit www.YouGotOurTract.com". On the bottom in small print it says "For these & Other Gospel Tracts Please Visit www.OneMillionTracts.com".

After reading this I am so glad that my sins have been forgiven. I am so glad that Our God is so wonderful that he is working on creating me into the person that he needs to fulfill his mission here on earth. Thank you Lord for everything you have done in my life and the lives of the people that will read this blog today. My prayer is that this will change someone's life. Psalm 23:1 The Lord is my Shepard, I shall not want.

What I can Remember.....

I remember from being smaller that my mom would take me to church. I don't really remember my little sister being there but she probably was. I started my walk with God as a teenager in the Lutheran religion. Me, my mom would go faithfully every Sunday and I was even enrolled in communion classes. You had to be a certain age to take the classes and you had to take the classes in order to take communion with the rest of the church. My dad has never gone to church with us. But, from what I told when he was little he would go all the time. My dad is Southern Baptist and my mom of course Lutheran. I remember my mom use to talk about her mom and dad were Lutheran too. Anyways, me and my mom would go faithfully and then he started to go on only holidays. You know Christmas, Easter and so forth and, now she doesn't go at all. My little sister, my dad or mom just stopped going all together. So, for many years I did not go to church either. I would sprucely go but would never commit to one church. I always loved the Lord but just wasn't ready to walk completely with him. I do remember that when I lived in South Carolina I started to go to a church on a regular basis I went because one of my co-workers who I befriended invited me and at that time I did not have a car so she would pick me up and drop me off every Sunday. Church service at that time was long and sometimes I would say that I couldn't handle the church overflow and would not go more than once a week. But, the funny thing about fellowship is that when you get to know that people in your church, the attendees, even the pastor and his wife you want to come more. You want to experience a spiritual walk with somebody. I have had people that I have walked with, people that get excited to see me in church, people to talk about God with and people that I get to know through volunteer work. The more you fellowship with God's people the more comfortable you are, the more you want to go to church, and the more you see that they are just like you. So, I started to fellowship, get to know people in church and my friend stopped going. I continued to go. I did make that my church home and attended faithfully for over a year. I remember that at that time I was not really about spending holiday's at the church, I wanted to be in the club, I wanted to be somewhere else. I spend new year's 2004 there. I had stopped going to that church because they were always taking an offering but nothing was getting fixed. Right before I stopped going I started volunteering in children's ministry and this was my first time that I started volunteering my time. I started going to this larger church in South Carolina, I did feel out of place but was always curious about the words that were put on the screen during service. Who did it? How did it work? Things like that but, I never asked. I would say that I went to that church for about 6 months and then I decided to spend my summer in Wyoming with my parents. They don't go to church so, I didn't either. I then moved to Illinois where I am now. I have been going to the same church for about 3 1/2 years and have actually volunteered in the media ministry where I get to put the words on the screen, lol, and I have volunteered in children's ministry for over 2 years. I do attend faithfully. Wednesdays and Sundays every week. My point in reviewing my walk is because in the beginning I didn't really know what was going on and I didn't really have a solid foundation. I have created a foundation and I love church now. I could never get the overflow like I once did. I have meet more people volunteering than actually just attending. My walk has because I great with the Lord because I just let go. When you start to love the Lord completely you will want to go to church, you will want to fellowship, and you will want to volunteer. If you haven't gone to church in a while, it's never too late to start again. God has never left you and never will.

Matthew 22:37-38 (NIV)

³⁷ Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’^{[a] 38} This is the first and greatest commandment.

Matthew 12:36

Matthew 12:36 But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment. This was so powerful to me yesterday when I posted my comment to my previous post. My previous post was just about change and having a right relationship with God. That is just so important to me. I am a living testimony so I can speak about what God has changed in my life. Cussing is something that I really need to work on. God, is taking it away slowly but it still lingers. This passage makes me think of the times that I have cussed at my children when it wasn't really necessary. Or, when I thought that it was but, could of chose a different way to say it. I can go all day at work and not cuss because I've been trained to be a professional. But, why is it so hard for me to watch what I say when I am not at work? I cuss at home, in regular conversation, and sometimes in church. I'm kinda starting to feel real bad as I write this. As a teacher and a leader. I need to lead by example. People are watching you even if you don't know it. I'm a small groups leader at church and would never want any of my students to cuss sometimes the way I do. I would look at them like OMG. But, it's something that I do. If they heard me they would look at me like OMG. What a hypocrite that makes me. I don't want to be that. Lord, I pray that you make me the same way I want my students to be. I want to be a Leader and a Teacher that lives by the word completely and sets the right example. Lord, take this habit of satan away from me so, that I can speak righteousness unto myself and well as others. Forgive me for this for I do want to change. Amen.

God is so Good!!!!

Today, I stopped to give my co-worker a ride home when she was sitting at the bus stop. I pulled over and said "Do you want a ride?" This complete stranger to me said "I need a ride too." I said "Well, I was talkin' to her." He said I just need to go to the transit center." She got in the car and I told the guy "I will give you a ride too." The girl was like "You don't know him." I said "Yeah, but if there are 2 of us in the car can't kill us both." I looked at the guy and said "I'm blessing you so, you better not kill me. Just make sure that you bless someone else today." He said "I will try." I said "God said that if you give a thirsty child some water, you are blessing someone." We drove down the road until we got to the transit center and he said "I will make sure to bless someone today." I said "Thank you." The girl I was giving a ride to knew the guy and it didn't feel bad in my spirit to give him a ride. Thank you God for that divine appointment. I pray that the guy does as he says and blesses someone today.

What if?

What if you were the only christian that somebody met? What type of Jesus would you be? I'm not saying that I am perfect. Because all of God's people are broken, but would your actions represent the type of Jesus someone would like to get to know? I will admit that I use to smoke cigarettes, I use to do drugs, I have been in adultery relationships, and have obviously had premarital sex. I fixed these problems. I prayed about them. When I smoked cigarettes I use to feel dirty like people were judging me, I prayed about it. God had taken away the urge but, I had smoked anyways. I started on my birthday and I stopped on my birthday. I was smoking with my sister while we were drinking beer and the next morning I was violently ill. It was ridiculous. I knew that it was God that made me sick because I went against his will. He took away something I prayed I wanted taken away and did it anyways, just because I wanted to. How I stopped smoking weed was that God had told me that I was suppose to quit but, I kept making excuses. I still have some left so I will quit after this and of course would go buy another bag. No matter how short the bag was, how bad the product I would still buy it. I just wanted to get to high. Well, one day in church during praise and worship the worship leader read a verse out of the bible "And Jesus, walking by the sea of Galilee, saw two brethren, Simon called Peter, and Andrew his brother, casting a net into the sea: for they were fishers. And he saith unto them, Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men." (Matthew 4:18-19 KJV). The way he explained it was that the fishermen just left and followed Jesus. They did not clean their house, tell their family, or do anything else. They just left. Something inside my spirit said just leave it Erin. I knew that it was my time to quit. I had no problem with it. God had taken away the urge. I will admit that I smoked about a few weeks later. It just wasn't the same though. I felt awkward and out of place and my whole body was affected. I smoked because it was a holiday. This was the last time I did. I have been around it, even had people offer to get my high for free, and even had people say will I will just blow it your face then if you don't want to join us. But, I have prayed for forgiveness and have been set free. The adulterous relationship was stopped when I prayed for God to separate us because it was not right. I had prayed for any distraction from God to be placed out of my life. I even asked my pastor to pray for this man so that he would give his wife another chance. We (me and the man) had even discussed the fact that this was the right thing to do. God, answered my prayer about this too. I think that he is giving his wife another chance. He now goes to church and I believe that it is with his wife. I am so happy that God fixed his heart so that they could be together again. I will confess that I am still working on cussing and over eating but God is slowing taking this away too. I was hard for me to admit my wrongs in this post but it must done. The message today is that if there is something in your life that is blocking you from because closer to God then just pray about it. He answers prayers. He wants to be close to you. He wants you in his life. My Jesus would not be getting high, drinking, cussing, over eating, having pre-marital sex, or smoking cigarettes. I had to fix this things to walk up right in righteous. Do you walk upright? Have you prayed for God to fix things in your life? You will be amazed at what he will do if you just left him.

A dream last night......

While I was sleeping last night I had a dream. I remember that I was in a room full of people. I'm not sure if they were children or adults but, I remember that a man walked into the room and pointed to me and said "Amongst these people you are the most qualified to be a teacher." I looked up at him with complete confidence and said "I know." I walked toward him and I remember that he had long spaghetti like arms. He wanted to pray with me. I remember that it took him along time to start the prayer. This dream was the very first dream where God has talked with me directly and told me what I am suppose to do in his Kingdom. Thank you Lord for letting me know what I am suppose to do. I can do all things in Christ which strength me. Phillippians 4:13.

I am So Sorry Lord.....

Today, I did wrong by God and all I can do is ask for forgiveness. I do stand up right in rightousness. Today, I posted a blog about why people feel about themselves if we are told that we are made the way God wants us to be made. I also talked about if someone were to think that you are truly beautiful how wonderful that would be. I had a comment on facebook about how I was judging people and that I don't need a man to feel justified. Hello, world I haven't needed a man to feel justified in years. When I write in my blog I always pray about it first. I pray that God will give the words and message that people need to hear. What I wrote about today was something that I have been struggling with. I have felt a void in my life and I have been filling it with food. I have been battling this by myself. It obvious of course because I am over weight but, truth is I'm embarrased to talk about it. But, I had the courage today to express my true feelings on the internet, on this blog, and on facebook and someone told me my feelings were wrong. How can I judge someone if I haven't used any names, if I didn't call any names, and if I used the expressions me and I. I did use the expression we but, I meant as a whole. We the people. I know that I am not the only one that feels this way. I know it. So, I did not want to cause conflict, especially on facebook, so, I deleted my post. I knew it was wrong because I asked for God's forgiveness before I did it because I know that that is what he wanted me to share. Please, forgive me Lord. I do Love you more than anything and I am so sorry. If I were to mess up our relationship I don't know what I would do. I prayed over this blog and cried all the way home because I let the Lord down. From this day forward I walk upright. If you don't like what the Lord has placed in my heart then maybe the message was not meant for you. Everything you do is never always liked. All I can do is be a light for God and relay the messages that he has put in my spirit to do. I WILL NEVER DELETE ANOTHER POST TO AVOID CONFLICT. I stand by what I type and what I feel. When I typed about someone thinking I was truly beautiful it wasn't about a man. It was anybody. You know that my mom has never said that I was beautiful. My dad never has either. I don't really know if anybody has truly ever thought I was beautiful. If you need justification from a man other your dad than you need to look at a bigger picture. A man does not make you who you are unless you let them. Let God make you for who are suppose to be. As the expression is said Let Go and Let God. I am in a battle right now for what is right and what is wrong. I need battle with God's words and not my own. A scripture was told to me today that I need to start living by it is Psalm 23. The Lord is my shepard; I shall not want. 2.He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of rightousness for his name's sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table for me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anoinest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

A Real Valentine......

I must tell you about what a Real Valentine is......A Real Valentine is someone that honestly loves you for who you are, thinks you are beautiful when you are not, tells you that you are beautiful, loves you unconditionally, doesn't require you to sleep with them just to get some dinner and flowers, it's someone who is willing to have a right relationship with you, someone that will will be your friend first, someone that is not embarrassed of you, openly accepts your relationship no matter where you are, who is among you, and doesn't care what they have to say about it. A Real Valentine is going to embrace your relationship for what it is, keep it growing, will hold your hand when you are scared, you can call them at anytime and they always answer the phone, calls you when they say they are going to call you, keeps their word, and is a GREAT role model to the people around them. For me this is God. Not one year on this earth have I accepted God as my valentine until this year. Men on earth always have flaws just like women. But, I believe that a Real Valentine will put as much into a relationship equally as the other person. This is what makes a team. Some people probably thinks that I shouldn't write about this because I'm always single but, I'm always single for a reason. I don't want to have to settle. I'm better than that and so are you. I'm not going to be sexually immoral just for companionship, I'm not going to live with someone of the opposite sex before marriage. When you chose to accept God in your life you have to make sacrifices, and you have to do the right thing. You are an example to people around you. Going against God....is that really worth having a Valentine?

Awkward.....

When you are sitting in a black church and you are the only white person in the congregation and the pastor says not to offend anybody, you are about to be offended. The pastor started preaching about how his parents were struggling when he was younger and how they were picking cotton from the fields and the white man would take all their money so, they would always do without. My son aasaa says "Mom, do you feel awkward right now?" I said "Aasaa, I'll be fine." The pastor's wife starting crying because she was probably thinking about the struggles that her family went through as well, because the pastor and his wife were both born in the south. I'm not saying that they were wrong to talk about it just, that I felt that it was said in the wrong way. I had the older black women in the congregation looking at me too, giving me stares and glances. I didn't do it. My race did but, I didn't. My son aasaa who is also black said that it made him feel awkward too. I have been the only white person in a black congregation before but, I have never felt so awkward in my life. I was so upset about what was said that I could not grasp the words that were being said because all I wanted to do was leave. I just remember that everytime I would look at the clock only 1 minute had passed. I do remember that the pastor was talking about there is a right way to say things and a wrong way to say them. I was like, you just your message way wrong. You could of still told your story but did you have to bring race into when, everyone already knew what you were talking about. Not to be funny but I have been wrong by plenty of black people and I'm not going to stand infront of a whole congregation of white people, with only 1 black person in the audience and talk about them. If it was not wrong how things were said then how come my son was offended and they were talking about my race? My son aasaa said "Well, mom he pretty much said that he doesn't like white people because they enslaved them." My son is 12 and got the message way deeper than I did. God, did tell me that I wasn't suppose to go back there and I went because I wanted to worship with my friend. But, I got it God. That is not the place that I am suppose to worship at. Me and my friend were made to worship together but just at a different place. The truth is, is that me and friend do worship together sometimes in the car, sometimes on the phone, sometimes in person, and sometimes in text. He always has something spiritual to say when the time is right. We have been worshiping together since we met. Lord, I am so sorry that I went against what you had told me not to do. The Lord made me feel awkward during praise & worship and I was praying to him that he could take away the awkward so that I can get into praise and worship, to get my mind together, because I wanted to hear the word. I also prayed that my kids would be able to get something from the word too. All I can say is God, again I am so sorry.

God is good all the time......

One of the desires of my heart is to open a business. So, yesterday, after waiting for a few weeks I received my business cards, T-shirt and large car door magnet. That I'm going to use to spread the news of my business. I remember that when I opened up the package I felt a little over whelmed because since, I have these items literally in my hands the rest of my mission is up to me. God, has given me the vision, the education, the smarts and the ability to do this. The thought of this actually happening, of me actually owing a business, is so amazing. When I think of my business, I imagine an office, people working under me, and just having the chance to always be tuned in to what the consumer wants and needs. This is a vision that has never been more clear that it is now. I am also scared too. I'm scared of failure. I'm scared of no support from friends and family. I'm worried that no one will believe in me. I might not get any clients. There is so much to be concerned about. But, I know that since God is in my life and never gives up on me. That I will succeed. I know that there is a scripture, I apologize that I don't know where it is right now, but, it talks about all things done in God will be successful. I was actually worried that if I posted my love for God on my website that I might not get as many clients. I know that God is the only way to go and if my future clients don't like that then we don't need to do business. I have the link to my blog on the bottom of every page. Because of God I am able to achieve my dreams. I am able to see the big picture and actually create goals for myself that are far beyond what I thought I could ever do. I don't think that anyone in my family actually owns a business. I do have family members that work for themselves but, they don't own the business by themselves. I am the first person in my family to graduate college, I am the first one to make it out of high school without being pregnant and who knows what else I'm going to achieve all because of God. If I had people on this earth who loved me like God loves me, would never judge me, always looked at the positive about me instead of the negative, and would just hold my hand through hard times. I would be able to feel true love on earth. Just like how I love God and he loves me.

When life is rough......

Life may beat us up but won't beat us! 2 Corinthians 4:16. This is the scripture that my pastor kept saying yesterday during service. It is so true. I had a situation that happened yesterday and I didn't really like and I thought I was done wrong in. But, Lord Thank You so much for answering my prayer that involved this person. I was listening to Rick Warren and it was something I needed to hear. I had listened to it before but honestly, it did not effect me like it today. He was talking about if you let someone who has done you wrong make you feel bitter or mad you are the only one that is hurting from it. The person that did you wrong probably already forgot about it. This is so true because if they really cared then they wouldn't of done you wrong to start with. Sometimes this is a hard pill to swallow. That someone that calls you a friend honestly, never was. You could have gotten along with each other, had fun together but if you never honest in the beginning it can never be a right relationship. That is why repentance is so important to have a right relationship with God. You have to always be honest, share your feelings and open your heart to him. He already knows anyways. So, why not. He knew about it before you knew what you were going to do. When God puts people in your life, they are there for a reason. Treat them just as you would want to be treated. The closer you get to God the more people he going to put in your life that love God so you can encourage each other and complete the mission. You do know that everyone is in your life for just a season. So, just make it a great season.

What a wonderful God you are.....

I didn't write to My God yesterday. I did make time for him but, did not write to him. Yesterday, started out great. I went to church, made up with my sister, and hung out with my family. A couple of astonishing things happened yesterday. The biggest one was when I was in church the pastor was talking about the older generation and how we can't just put God to the side for the younger generation to take over. The pastor was talking about 55 and older. But, to my kids I am the older generation. In fact I haven't really spoke to my kids since Friday because they made upset. It also upset me that they didn't really care that we weren't talking because I still supplied food, and their basic essentials. It was just put in my spirit that this is how we treat our God. We know that he supply or basic essentials enough for to survive so, why do we need a personal relationship with him? He is always there. No matter what. This is how my kids look at me. God told me that instead of just praying for my kids, I need to pray with my kids. This makes sense. I have done that before but for serious stuff. So, when I got home I said aasaa and sheddrickk hold hands. I prayed for the mending of our relationship just as I prayed for the relationship to be mending between me and God. This was the most powerful prayer I think that I have ever said. God gave the right words to say and I was forceful and it was impacting because, my kids changed almost instantly. I need to pray everyday with them and this is something that I am going to do. I pray everyday so I need to pray with them everyday so, it because natural for them to do the same. You can be leader if you can't lead by example.

Looking back on today....

Dear Lord, I want to Thank you for listening to my prayer I posted on my blog last night. I wanted a way that I could put myself deeper in the word and you did just that. Thank you for suppling our every need especially when it comes to full filling your purpose. I was listening to "A Purpose Drivin' Life" by Rick Warren on Audio Book and, found that it was so convenient because I was able to multi-task and still listen to the message. I could shelf shift at work, walk to class, whatever and still be able to soak in what I needed to hear. So, I did a search today for The Bible on audiobook and the prices were way high. I think that the word of God should be free. So, God told me to keep searching. I then discovered audio files that you could download but they still wanted paid. I kept searching. I came across a website where it was a cd ministry and the volunteers burned cd's of the bible for people who did not have the technology available to them or, you could just download that bible and burn your own cd. What a marvelous idea. I totally wanted to volunteer for that ministry because I burn cd's all the time for people and since it was online it was global. How much of an impact that would make and you never leave your house? Amazing!!! That is truly an amazing idea. Unfortunately, the webform expired and I could not sign up but, I was able to download the bible to my computer, I will burn it to a cd and download it to my ipod. I will be able to listen to the word while I'm driving, while I'm walking, while I'm doing whatever. This is such a blessing and The Lord lead me right to it. Now, since I can't join that ministry I can still burn cd's so, if you would want me to burn the bible to cd for you. I will. Just let me know!!!!!. Have a blessed day and keep God truly first in your life and nothing could be better. :)

In The Bible.....

I was talking with my friend today and he was telling me about different stories in the bible. He was laughing and he having so much passion about them. He said that when he reads the stories of the bible he can actually put himself there in the story. He can feel what they feel. He just so passionate about what he was teaching me. It was so beautiful and amazing that God would put someone in my life like that. I'm not sure if it's so I would know what being passionate about God was or, because that is what I am suppose to do. My friend is always fasting, always trying to get closer to the Lord. Everyday, he just wants to serve the Lord's purpose. He just wants to save souls. He cares about the sheep. My prayer to you Lord, is that I can be as passionate about the bible, that when I read your words they are not just words, it's a story and it's something I can feel. I want to passionate about you Lord. With everything I do. It's amazing that no one is sin free but, we are always trying to correct what's wrong with us to get closer to God. I wish I could be more like my friend. I know that I do not have the same gifts as him but, Lord I was that same passion. I have do have passion for the Lord but, I must confess not all the time. Not, 100% of my day. I want to have passion for you Lord all the time. Lord fill me with the Holy Spirit so I can be able to do your work whenever asked and I can fulfill my life mission. When it is time to stand before you I want to be able to save. Lord, I was passionate and saved as many souls as I could. Lord, help me find the right words at the right time to be able to do this for you. Just continue to be my everything and shift in my life what needs to be shifted so that you can honestly be number one.

Not very much time today....

Today, was kind of an awkward day and I must admit that I did not spend much time with God. My morning started with birthday wishes to my friend, a proposal for a full time job which was a customer service - graphic design position, but I had to refuse this right now but, I have to finish school. I am almost finished and I feel if I stop going I might not go back. I got training on the switcher at church, and even looked at a 2 bedroom apartment today. The apartment was out of the hood which is the ultimate goal but it was small. I also noticed this morning that I have gained weight. I have been finding more comfort in food than in God. This is a habit I definitely need to change. The job proposal was good because it was from the same resume I have posted on my business website so, I believe God was telling me that I'm headed in the right direction. It also gave me hope because I'm still in school so, when I am actually finished with school who knows what God will have planned for me. The apartment was also a blessing because I always tell myself that I have to live in the hood because I can't afford it anywhere else. This was God telling me that I can. All things are possible through God. I'm still looking for a place but, I know that when I find it it will not be on the South Side of Peoria. The location was good and closer to my school. I just want a place where I'm not afraid and always worrying about my house and the things in it. I know that God will provide. I know that God has a plan for me and is shifting things for me. Just remember that God is always in the background, always looking out for you, and planning things that you have no idea of. What has God shifted for you lately?

God Is Good All The Time.....:)

So, here in peoria, il we have basically been shut down for the last 2 days. There are barely any businesses open and definitely no schools, or any other government building. I haven't left my house in  2 days. So, I tried to get to pull out of my driveway. I made it halfway and got stuck. I was frustrated so I came up with this great idea to melt the snow and ice away with water. I have no snow shovel, no husband, so, it is just me and my kids. It just wasn't working. I asked God "God, are you telling me that I shouldn't leave?" Still stuck, car wouldn't budge an inch, I went inside. An hour later I tried again. My car still wouldn't move. Really upset almost about to cry I opened the car door starting loosening up the snow and ice with a board. I tried one more time, the car still did not move. I was about to leave and there was a four wheeler behind and it was a mexican woman she said "My husband will pull you out if you want?" I said "Thank you, so much." So, the gentleman that helped me could not even speak english got under my car and hooked up the rope. He was getting snow and ice in his face and all over his jacket and still persisted to help. I was so greatful. The woman said "Can they get your car?" I said "Yeah." His friend who didn't speak english either got in the car and before I knew it my car was free. I said "Mucho Gracious" and they smiled and went about their way. As I was driving there were so many cars that were stuck like mine so, all I could do was Thank God for his grace. But, God wasn't done yet. The bank was closed and I really need to pull out some money for Gas. So, since I could not go there I continued to Wal-Mart to get groceries and some odds and ends. Just as I pulled into the parking lot there was a space to park that was very close to the front of the store. So, not only did God find a way for me to get to where I needed to go but, also provided me with a great place to park and I got my gas money. Thank you Lord so much for your blessings today. Thank you so much for your grace over me, family and everyone in my life. I love you and them very much. What has God blessed you with today? What do you have to be thankful for? Share, praise God and continue to help those around you. Amen.

Something Little Can Go Along Way :)

I was talking to my friend about this blog and she told me that she was going to tell her aunt. I was so happy because she told me that she reads every post and that her aunt loved it!!!! I told her that she she is helping to save lives by spreading the word and that the angels in heaven are rejoicing. She said well my aunt is already saved, a preachers wife and very spiritual. But, the fact is is that my friend doesn't understand how a little step in spreading the word can go create a huge leap for God. Who knows who her aunt could tell about the blog or what they would have to say? The truth is is that my friend doesn't go to church on a regular basis so, this truly beautiful. Her aunt even though saved would of never known about my blog with my friend's help. Another way to look at this is that I am working on a pay it forward project. On facebook one of my friend posted in their status that the first five people who commented and said that they wanted something handmade and would repost the status and they would have until the end of the year to fulfill this promise. I only had 3 people comment and said that they wanted something from me handmade. I don't think that they reposted it in their status but I could be wrong. Anyways, I told my son about it and he said mom if everyone does what they are suppose you might impact the world. This coming from a 12 year was monumental and something that I must do now and complete. If I don't I will let down my son plus, the 3 people that are expecting something handmade from me. So, I do expect those 3 people to make 3 handmade things and keep their promise too. The point is is a simple gesture made could impact the world if you let it. Knowing this How Easy would it be to impact the Earth for God?

A little overwhelming!!!!

When you think of all the wonderful gifts that God has gave to you. It is a little overwhelming!!!! To know that someone you have never met has more faith and love for you than anyone on earth. He wants you to be great in everything you do. He has given you so many gifts that you may never utilize because of fear or unwillingness. I know that God is calling me to be a public speaker for him. I have no problem speaking in front of a group. But, to know that someone I have never met believes in me so much that he will give me the strength so that I can tell others about him is truly amazing. It is something that I thought that I would never be able to do. I always thought  that I was a silent servant and would only praise and pray to him so only me and God can here. But, God has a different plan for me. I am a little scared but God is preparing me for greatness in his kingdom. All I want to do is save lives for him!!!! I am so in live with God!!!! He is truly amazing.

Scriptures

It has been in my spirit for a few weeks now to learn some scriptures. I have been listening to "The Purpose  Driven Life" by Rick Warren and he said that if you don't know any scriptures it's like being in a battle with no ammunition. I think that it is wonderful when a person knows scriptures from the bible and how powerful it really is. His challenge to everyone is to memorize a scripture a week for the rest of your life. I remember along time ago someone told me that when you start to memorize scripture to start small and get bigger. So, this week I am going to memorize Phillipians 4:13 - I can do all things in Christ which strenghteneth. This scripture is impacting to me because so far in my journey with the Lord the hardest thing for me to do was publicly praise him. It was so easy to do praise him in silent but, in public is a whole nother world. I remember the first time I did this was actually this month and there were people in the church praising God so passionately and I was so scared to do this so, I asked God, "God, if you want me to do this let me." I was so nervous, and very uncomfortable. Right after I asked God that question. My Pastor said "Confessions is more than confessing your sins to God, it is letting him know how important he is to you. Confession is necessary in order to build a close relationship with him." Before I know it my feet were moving and I was infront of the mic. God, gave me the strength to stand up for him publicly and he also gave me the exact words he wanted me to say. I also remember that I was shaking through the whole thing but, when it over, I felt wonderful. This happened during my first fast that I completed. When fasting you do truly connect with God on a whole new level. People at that service said they liked what I had to hear and it made me feel good. I also did the same thing last week. I remember when I went to the line it was short, I was still nervous but not like before. I said what God wanted me to say and I know it made a difference. There were kids in service last weekend, who I have known for years and I pray that it gave them the encouragement to do the same. And to let them know that I am serious about God.