What if?

What if you were the only christian that somebody met? What type of Jesus would you be? I'm not saying that I am perfect. Because all of God's people are broken, but would your actions represent the type of Jesus someone would like to get to know? I will admit that I use to smoke cigarettes, I use to do drugs, I have been in adultery relationships, and have obviously had premarital sex. I fixed these problems. I prayed about them. When I smoked cigarettes I use to feel dirty like people were judging me, I prayed about it. God had taken away the urge but, I had smoked anyways. I started on my birthday and I stopped on my birthday. I was smoking with my sister while we were drinking beer and the next morning I was violently ill. It was ridiculous. I knew that it was God that made me sick because I went against his will. He took away something I prayed I wanted taken away and did it anyways, just because I wanted to. How I stopped smoking weed was that God had told me that I was suppose to quit but, I kept making excuses. I still have some left so I will quit after this and of course would go buy another bag. No matter how short the bag was, how bad the product I would still buy it. I just wanted to get to high. Well, one day in church during praise and worship the worship leader read a verse out of the bible "And Jesus, walking by the sea of Galilee, saw two brethren, Simon called Peter, and Andrew his brother, casting a net into the sea: for they were fishers. And he saith unto them, Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men." (Matthew 4:18-19 KJV). The way he explained it was that the fishermen just left and followed Jesus. They did not clean their house, tell their family, or do anything else. They just left. Something inside my spirit said just leave it Erin. I knew that it was my time to quit. I had no problem with it. God had taken away the urge. I will admit that I smoked about a few weeks later. It just wasn't the same though. I felt awkward and out of place and my whole body was affected. I smoked because it was a holiday. This was the last time I did. I have been around it, even had people offer to get my high for free, and even had people say will I will just blow it your face then if you don't want to join us. But, I have prayed for forgiveness and have been set free. The adulterous relationship was stopped when I prayed for God to separate us because it was not right. I had prayed for any distraction from God to be placed out of my life. I even asked my pastor to pray for this man so that he would give his wife another chance. We (me and the man) had even discussed the fact that this was the right thing to do. God, answered my prayer about this too. I think that he is giving his wife another chance. He now goes to church and I believe that it is with his wife. I am so happy that God fixed his heart so that they could be together again. I will confess that I am still working on cussing and over eating but God is slowing taking this away too. I was hard for me to admit my wrongs in this post but it must done. The message today is that if there is something in your life that is blocking you from because closer to God then just pray about it. He answers prayers. He wants to be close to you. He wants you in his life. My Jesus would not be getting high, drinking, cussing, over eating, having pre-marital sex, or smoking cigarettes. I had to fix this things to walk up right in righteous. Do you walk upright? Have you prayed for God to fix things in your life? You will be amazed at what he will do if you just left him.